Perfectly Imperfect.

This isn’t going to be perfect. Nor am I.

Written January 2024: Long before I received the courage to actually publish.

I sit in a coffee shop in my new city of Phoenix. Surrounded by strangers who I may one day know by name. Phoenix is where I live, but it doesn’t feel like ‘home’ yet. I hope that one day, it does. 

I am still trying to accept that it’s okay to put your unperfected self out there, flaws and all. What I am trying to do is create a space where I can breathe. An outlet where I allow creative expression. A place to house all my memories and musings. I’ll be sharing all this with you, which is terrifying and equally liberating. As I have learned--when I’m terrified of something,  I know it’s the *exact* thing I need to do next.

I’ve always considered myself a transparent person, but I’ve realized I’m transparent in safe spaces. I’m lucky enough to have many people I can call a safe space. What happens when I open up to those who may not..understand me? Judge me. Share this post with their friends in secret and say “is Logan going through an existential crisis?” To that I would say, ‘yes, and how are you not?!” This world is too immense to not question our purpose every single day. How do we live this life to the fullest?

With 10+ years working in the beautiful chaos of advertising, I spent a recent 2 years solo-traveling the globe throughout Southeast Asia, Latin America, and beyond. More on that story later. I had several months completely free from work, hallelujah! Throughout my travels I taught ESL, became a travel advisor for Fora Travel, and freelanced for a few different companies. 

Living life out of a suitcase is so freeing. I also missed consistency and being comforted by simple luxuries. Both can be true. I decided I was ready for a homebase again. I wanted to continue building my career, community, and stability. Oh yeah…and I was out of money. So I started interviewing for jobs all across the United States. I was open to any major city.  I still wanted this to feel like a new adventure, afterall. Ultimately, Phoenix found me. I felt massively apprehensive, as desert-life was never a consideration. I leaped. I plunged. I accepted a job as an Account Supervisor at an advertising agency. I moved back to the country AND then across the country! I rarely experience culture shock going to other countries, but oh boy, do I experience it coming back to the states -- where consumerism, hustle-culture, and egoism are at the forefront. 

I’m getting reacquainted with myself as I step back into the career world, and routine in a new American city. Some could say that this is the lifestyle I used to live, but I was a much different person when I left that life and I don’t even know if I recognize her anymore. Life for me now includes healthy boundaries, intention, creativity, and as always, curiosity.

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